Nomadic Tales: Emotionally blah


One of the lessons that God has been teaching me since coming to Moldova is to seek God more. I know that is kind of a cliche thing for a missionary to say, but it is really true. This week, I experienced a day of just emotional "blahness"... I was drained- physically tired, emotional empty, and mentally my brain was done with language-- I was just done. Normally, I am a self aware person, and even when I feel crazy, I can keep it in check- but this one day. I found myself grumpy and not in control of myself. I thought that talking it out would help- nope. Nothing did, so crying seemed to be the my only option. I just cried (which is not normal for me) and then I began to talk to God. I asked God in that moment to restore me, and I asked God to fill my cup up because I was feeling empty. And the amazing thing is, God took those feelings of crazy and instantly I felt renewed.

Often when life gets crazy we tend to look in ourselves or to others to helps us feel better, or to refuel us so that we can press on, and when that doesn't work, we just find ourselves loosing our grip and stability in life. And just as much as we want people to do the trick to replenish our souls, the truth is running into our heavenly fathers arms is the only way that true refueling can take place. Of course people can help us through these times, but running to God first, is the lesson I've been reminded of this week! Thank you God for your loving kindness and for loving me!

Thank you for praying for me, and the girls I'm with here... Prayer is so important, so please continue to pray for me, the interns, the staff, the women and the children of the home- That God's love would fill us all, so that we can serve one another as God has called us!

Brothers and sisters, God has called you to freedom! Hear the call, and do not spoil this gift by using your liberty to engage in what your flesh desires; instead, use it to serve each other as Jesus taught through love. Galatians 5:13 VOICE

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